Lina reached up and grabbed a handful of his wiry beard. She pulled with all her might, and the chief guard roared, but he didn't let go. My wife turned her head on the pillow and smiled wanly; she stretched out a bare arm and caressed with the tips of her fingers the cellophane and silk ribbons of the largest bouquet. 'How sweet people are, ' she said faintly, as though the gale were a private misfortune of her own for which the world in its love was condoling with her. 'I take it you're not getting up.' 'Oh no, Mrs Clark is being so sweet'; she was always quick to get servants' names. 'Don't bother. Come in sometimes and tell me what's going on.' 'Now, now, dear,' said the stewardess, 'the less we christian louboutins pumps are disturbed today the better.' My wife seemed to make a sacred, female rite even of sea-sickness.
Julia's cabin, I knew, was somewhere below ours. I waited for her by the lift on the main deck; when she came we walked once round the promenade; I held the rail; she took my other arm. It was hard going; through the streaming glass we saw a distorted world of grey sky and black water. Later, turning it over in my mind, as I turned in my bed with the rise and fall of the ship, through the long, lonely, drowsy night, I recalled the courtships of the past, dead, ten years; how, knotting my tie before setting out, putting the gardenia in my buttonhole, I would plan my evening and think at such and such a time, at such and such an opportunity, I shall cross the start-line and open my attack for leopard print heels better or worse; 'this christian louboutin pumps sale phase of the battle has gone on long enough', I would think; 'a decision must be reached.' With Julia there were no phases, no start-line, no tactics at all. But later that night when she went to bed and I followed her to her door, she stopped me. 'No, Charles, not yet. Perhaps never. I don't know. I don't know if I want love.' Then something, some surviving ghost from those dead ten years - for one cannot die, even for a little, without some loss made me say, 'Love? I'm not asking for love.
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